Winter is not my season. To be honest I don’t think it’s anyone’s season except my boyfriends who is a dedicated and extremely passionate snowboarder.

I’m at my best when it’s warm, sunny and there’s still sun after 3PM. When I don’t need 5 layers of clothing, just to get extremely hot and sweaty as soon as I get into the tube. Basically cold and shitty weather pisses me off

On the other hand, I probably wouldn’t be extremely satisfied with my life, living on a beach, plunging in Jacuzzis and sipping on cocktails all day, so I’ll stop complaining here.

 

 

This season in my unwritten biography is best known for the creative block. What’s worst is that often I’m extremely motivated from the boredom of sitting at home just because my lazy ass is too cold to go outside. I feel a creative block is easier for people who do less (not in the negative meaning of it). In a way my whole life is based on creativity, which isn’t bad, but when a creative block hits me, I’m basically powerless.In the end we all go through our creative blocks differently. I cope with it in phases:

1. Random pushes of energy that make me run around my flat looking for things to do
2. Back to bed – contemplating life & scrolling through Pinterest because maybe magically I’ll see something that will change my life
3. Oooh idea!!!
4. Let’s message all my creative friends and let’s see when can we start working
5. Everyone’s busy, so I’m back in bed thinking of new ideas that I could get working on alone (usually thinking about random stuff like css codes or what new could I film)
6. I come up with various ideas but none that can be executed at this exact moment, therefore I proceed to open Netflix and my extremely embarrassing word puzzles that I play, and wait until the next day to start working again.

 

I kind of realised that myself I work best when I act immediately on my creative pushes.

Whenever I have an idea, I get to writing it down and exploring it as soon as it’s possible. I found that leaving it just floating there in your head will never actually get you to the phase of producing. And we won’t always be able to start making stuff immediately, and that’s fine. But I guess learning how to take these energy impulses and turn them into work is the key to producing, even if it’s the middle of the night.

Don’t assume that I have it all figured out. I still need to work on acting on these impulses. It’s easy to just write about it but we all are human beings, and we are allowed to be lazy, angry, demotivated or whatever there is that’s stopping us from work. I also found it’s quite good to find ideas that motivate you, I have a couple just in case one wouldn’t work:

• If I work hard maybe one day, I’ll be able to afford to rent a place with a cute bathtub and enough space for all the cats I want
• One day I could be more successful than all these people who treated me like shit at internships/jobs etc. (honestly this is one of the most satisfying thoughts! probably because I encountered people that are just extremely rude and almost seem too unreal)
• I really want to make my parents proud, especially my mom who takes great pleasure in talking to her friends about my successes #cute
• If I work hard enough, hopefully at one point in my life I’ll be able to be my own boss and have an extremely fulfilling job without sacrificing any of my own values or beliefs.
• If I won’t work I won’t be able to afford food, and that would be problematic since I eat like a family of 10

 

 

Always when extremely stuck I see a couple of options: Instagram, Pinterest, talking to others about your ideas or just getting randomly creative by painting, drawing, collaging. There’s so much inspiring stuff around us that we forget about. Therefore, to conclude today’s post, go out there and use what’s available. Complaining is fun until one point. After that it get’s more depressing than entertaining, so just get on with whatever you have. Each idea is worth exploring even if it seems terrible at first.

 

Beret – Zara || Top – Lazy Oaf || Belt – Asos || Flares – Missguided || Boots – Asos

Photos by Jenny Lafer