Lately all I had on my mind was my future. I guess it’s not surprising; however, it greatly bothers me at times. Especially since the fashion industry is quite complicating in terms of getting where you want to be. And it’s even harder when you don’t know exactly where you want to be in ten years. Of course I have ideas but not a single one is perfect, there’s styling, blogging (can you even call it a job?) and creative direction (where, for who etc.?).
The problem with the industry is, that in order to get a paid job you will need to complete around five to six internships, all unpaid and usually terrible jobs. Some of us get lucky and complete the perfect internship, but some of us doesn’t include me. I have done one amazing internship back in Poland, and that was the last positive experience I had with an internship.
In fashion, internships are like a university degree. Because studying fashion often isn’t too ambitious and challenging, you need to bring the challenge to yourself. We have amazing lecturers, industry insiders however they’re not going to teach you anything. That’s fashion, and the only way to learn something is to do all those unpaid internships.
Seems quite sad, that firms use young people as free labour because they are conscious of the employee market in that industry. I get it, no one has money these days, but many of those firms forget that if we are to work for free, they need to pass on some experience and knowledge onto us.
Currently I changed my approach towards these internships. I’m done with taking anything just to try it out or just to put on my CV. In all that craze I forgot that my time and health is also valuable, so from now on, if it gets nasty I’m out of here.
But then I get back to the original problem. What to do, to get out there and do something meaningful. When I was younger I had this weird idea that I would actually achieve something important in fashion, and at this point I just want a job which will make me happy and satisfied. Ideally it would be blogging but let’s be honest there’s too many of us at this point, so why push somewhere where you don’t belong?
Hopefully I’m not depressing anyone but the realities of the industry can be depressing. I know many people who already are quite successful, but all of them have one thing I don’t. The charm and charisma.
If you’re like me, lacking in confidence with huge social anxiety, introvert etc. you’ll understand what I’m about to say. I chose myself an industry where contacts are key, and I’m psychologically unable to gain these contacts. Bad luck I guess, but this pushes me backwards in terms of my success.
On the positive side of this I absolutely love doing my own personal projects, most of which I’ll share soon with you. They bring me so much joy, even though I know my work isn’t perfect and there’s space for improvement.
Let me know how you are handling this whole future anxiety situation. Hopefully it’s not only the fashion people who are mad about this.
photo by Kuba Polityło Aluwihare